Hi people again. i write diaries last time when i'm young, and i felt really retarded saying dear diary everytime. i was talking to a non living thing for years. guess how many diaries(fully written, no blank pages) i have? more than 6. some are scattered around my house. HAHAH

So yeah. I am extremely upset with everything nowadays. EVERYTHING. even myself.

- Today is the most upsetting drama session ever. freakin upset with Drama. where has the drama feeling gone? why is everything so effed up now? Firhads gone, everybody slacks, the school doesn't recognize our achievements and big O is a muthabitch....CRAPPED. Now i know why last time Siti Mira can actually cry for drama, coz i actually feel whats shes feeling now. seriously. i hate it. but i appreciate many people. people that have a heart. for drama.

- I am totally messed up. as in those kind of mixed up in a bottle and shake at 60 shakes/sec type of messed up. sometimes i wonder why god have to create me up this way. FUKING UPSET WITH MYSELF.

- fucking upset with TIME too. hate wrong timings.

- hate myself for not being smooth at times. Seriously, i would think i'm a total idiot after that.

- Upset when i can't persuade, or convince or help someone i really care about. (lika total failure dope.)
I'm really sad. the person that i'm trying my best to make her feel happy, belonged and UNBORED... it's not working out well. really tragic here. :(

whats worse than a FML? me.

thats about it, really Upset about the world, and myself. don't worry. I'll heal. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Labels: Upset with the muthafukin world and me.