This Picture is a perfect example of Joyce Cooper and me. Joyce the little girl, Me, that guy on the left. Notice what's in Joyce Cooper's hand. A club with thorns. Just like it, we're both friends. but I love her. What do i have in my hands?
haiz. OH YAH. Joyce Cooper is also the Queen of Pokerfaces.

Just Random here, ISSIT JUST ME or the cat in this pic LOOKS LIKE YUN XIN! It is like her "just heard a really bad news but still kinda blur-face." i am not jokingg! i am quite sure they look alike! hope she ain't offended. :D

ANW, READERS,
do you notice that nowadays i update my blog only occasionally? in case you have wondered, my computer is dead. but my father insists on repairing only after exams. :( so i can't blog much, even if i have mobile. mobile blogging for me is by luck, coz i can only type in the HTML page but it doesn't load properly on mobile. So, i'm sorry if the blog is kinda 'dead'. i try my best to update it one. like now, i am using my father's com that he forgot to log out 'illegally'.

i found my REMEDY and my REMEDY manual, but i won't tell you it's for what. what i hope now is that the remedy won't crap up. ALSO, i reckon i am suffering from minor Schizophrenia (delusions and hallucinations.) really and scary. :X

i am really worried for EOYs, it's coming in a week, NO MORE PLAYING. so yeah.i mean seriously. and at my state now, i think i would fail super badly. i still have alot to blog about, a story made by me, and a post for petrina on mr FAT OW.

TODAY:
SOME THINGS ARE BEST LEFT UNSAID.

today was another really smooth going day for me. i had my remedy, which left me rather impressed. Ming jie was going mad of leah dizon again, and showed it to Emeline, which in turn "said she's damned hot!" and started going mad abt her also. LOL! HAHAHA. Funny thing is, after awhile, Emeline was like more mad for Leah dizon than MJ. She searched for Leah like mad. XD got my paper SEQ essay crushed by Mr Ow today, it was like damned funny but heartbreaking. i wrote the essay for the whole test and he crushed it. HAIZ.

that's it, i dunno when will i be blogging again but, keep tuning in and visit my Tumblelog regularly for updates! (my mobile can use tumblr fully.)

Labels: Joyce Cooper, Schizoprenia, The remedy, Yun

Today was kinda GREAT. i tell you. everything went kinda smoothly again.
i would say it's like damned cool today. firstly, finally i got someone that has also have positive remark on LEAH DIZON. wooo. ( i remembered the whole conversation)

Today was freakin boring during english & chinese class ,so like Ming Jie went to search for hot girls on his i phone this is how it goes:

MingJie: Aye, loyzius, you know of any damned pretty or hot girls on facebook ornot? i want to add them as friend.
Me: Oh i know of one. but i don't think it's your taste haha.
Ming Jie: Ah nevermind, just tell me.
Me: ok you search Leah Dizon.
Ming Jie: How to spell?
Me: L-E-A-H D-I-Z-O-N
Ming Jie: (types her name and searched her profile. he got it and browsed her photos.)
Me: How? Aye she is damned hot. she is like my dream girl lah.
Ming Jie: (browses first few of her photos, which are quite normal and are all close up portrait shots) Ok lah. Cute. but not as good as my Maria Ozawa. but still i will add myself as fan.

A period later....

Ming Jie: OMGZ LOYSIUS! omg. oh shit. she is damned hot!!! oh hell.. shhhh....ah,
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA see i told you she is hell hot like a bomb lieh!
Ming Jie: (he browsed all her fan photos) OMG you see this picture. oh hell damed hot. i see her like my dick can stand oreadi.
Me: WTF? are you serious ornot? you mad arh. EH DON'T STEAL HER HOR SHE'S MY GIRLFRIEND OKAY!
Ming Jie: I don't care she is mine oreadi! omg LOOK wah seh... she is my girlfriend YOU don't come steal.
Me: Oi, you go back to your maria ozawa lah, see?i introduce you to Leah dizon one okay. XD

He then asks me abt her ethnicities, her jobs, where she is from. i told him everything.

Ming Jie: Wah i go home and see more.
Me: HAH. go home i dunno you do what. XD
Ming Jie: (toking to himself) wah seh srsly damned hot... so pretty....OMG i go ask Yun Xin whether she hot ornot. (goes over to pass her the phone to see.)

Yun Xin: oh she pretty. eh wait. Look damned slut leh! omg. like damned slut leh!
Me: O.O >:(
Ming Jie: no she is damned hot lah.
Me: Do you know she is married? and she has a baby oready?
Ming Jie: HUH! WHAT THE F*CK? really? who her husband?
Yun Xin : 'O'
Me : and if i show you her husbands face, you will sure damned angry one.
Yun Xin : OH so she Shotgun marriage rright?
Me: YAH. (i explaiined and told her how she told her fans, and how leah fans reacted)
Yun Xin: Omg..(looks to ming jie)
Me: (i showed Leah's husband's first photo)
YunXin: Oh ok what. i like. :D
Me: O.O omg.
Ming: YUCK! so....
Me: i show you another picture. ( search and showed them) damned ugly.
Ming Jie: DAMNED UGLY! omg lika dung eh.
Yunxin: (takes a look) OMG why he like damned old... wah he look damned old leh!
Sarah: (she was listening along, then pops her head to take a look) OH Yeah! damned old leh omg, like not fit her!
YunXin: YEAH! haiz. always pretty clebrity girls marry ugly guys one.
Ming Jie: Oh man, why.... why? HUH what the... why she married oreadi? What the hell... damned sad leh... D:
Me: yeah lah. sad.

Thats what exactly happened. the later parts are quite boring in our conversation. damned funny and cool. will remember today. really. HAHAHA.

Went to KAP to study along with Jia Qi ,Jessica, & Rachel Yeo! HAHA, had fun again also, we did lots of math, rehearsed for English Oral and i taught Jessica Chemistry, along With Rachel!
I can tell you rachel is a damned clever and strong and wise woman! Time! :D

Labels: another good day, anything

Labels: as lovers go., dashboard confessional, Joyce Cooper second definition

Currently: 00:35am. (12:35am)
35 minutes ago marked the end one of my most enjoyable, smooth and happy day in a Long,looonng time. the date's 17th september '09. After a long time, since March this year, i never had a day like this. Although i tried fasting for a day today, wit a really annoying stomach it did not put my spirits down, in fact, it made me happier that i had learnt a new experience. Times like this should be remembered. Thus, Recorded. :)

Labels: best days, for a long time, one of the smoothest

Just as i promised, but not the "gauranteed laughter" part, Indah , here's the video i said that i wanted to post. It's Hell FUNNY OKAY. ever seen a hippie? ever seen an environmental guy? THIS IS THE GUY. Enjoy. (ps: Indah, nice hair.)


I'ved lived in my condo for almost 9 years. 9 years. i never noticed how many caucasians lived on top of me. like we're all living a private life, And we never have the "neighbours" connection. some of those teenage girls that live above me are so effing pretty, so effing hot. But 9 Years. sigh, Time to make friends. XD

Same Goes for Joyce Cooper. i've know her for almost a Year. we're almost BFFs and more. but, what do i know about her? what am i to her? have i ever acknowledge her? or vice versa? I dunno. one cannot control one thoughts, even time doesn't stand a chance. i HAVE to seriously find a backup plan fast.

you know what are humans most common mistake? To not treasure something or someone, and when that something/someone is gone, we end up regretting on those things that we did not do to them before their gone.

We're at Starbucks when it got really boring:

Joyce: Loysius! i'll tell you a joke. okay? :D
Me: oh ok ok! what? i'm all ears. :D
Joyce: YOU ARE THE JOKE. :)
Me: ...........Aiyoo! JOYCE! thats damned lame and cliched much??! ._.
Joyce: HAH. you want to know why you ARE the Joke?
Me: okay ? why?
Joyce: Coz you keep deluding yourself over HER. and the way you do it, Heheh, is really wierd. you think she's still the same. you think she thinks the same as what you think. don't you think you have tried too hard? after all what did you get man. i'm sorry to say this but, i really can't stand seeing you become so crazy and not you.
Me: yeah. i think you're kinda right. I also kinda think i'm practically going insane. even Right Now.
Joyce: no please don't go all saddie abt it. to my opinion Loysius, and probably as an advice, she's still young. she's still not ready. she's just too much for you. just 'Lax yourself, you tried your best, you found a place in her life, thoughts. and it's rather significant, as a great friend. so tresure what you are to her now, and who knows it may get better in anytime.
Me: Yes Joyce. but i have that three things remember? that may ruin everything. my three things that is like, the three curse. if it comes in the way, i'm effing doomed, and there's no point in doing anything. and i particullarly sure they wil...
Joyce: don't worry. you just follow that manual i helped you find. follow word by word, step by step. it will help by lowering the chance of the darn three curses.
Me: Right. thanks Joyce. thank you so much. want i treat you to a Frappe? i got Moneyz
Joyce: What do you think i'm here for ? HAHA i want the Caramel Coffee Jelly Frapp. :D
Me: No Problem! :D

I shall keep this in mind, as this is from my mind and will be in my mind. :D

Labels: condo, funny video, Joyce Cooper

let's all have a moment of sentence here for the tragic thing that happened, 9/11, 8 yrs ago, with many innocent lives taken away just by the Damned Agenda the Political leaders wants us to believe in.

ANW, back to my stuffs, had a trip to the beach today with Abrams, Jessica, Rachel Yeo, Jia Qi & Jarrett. was superbly fun, got lots of photos, will upload on facebook.
Saw a really HOT girl. got wacked by seaweeds. went swimming in the sea. played volleyball/captains ball. dug holes in the sand/built sandcastles. had guy talk with Abrams.
Jarrett was being a jerk all day long while everyone was having fun. anyway, he left early. :D

Then we went bowling, but we lack of cash. actually not we, but me. :X i am so broke now. Bowled. lost the first round, Pwned everybody in the second. I Like. :D

Labels: 911, beach, Letter

I wanna watch the whole series of pirates of the caribbean again, I want to have A whole day match of paintball, I wanna go on a music search marathon,a music download marathon, I want to see Joyce Cooper(at the right times), I wanna skip spec course, I wanna go on a movie marathon, I wanna buy lots of handsome bermudas & t- shirts(i lack them), I need a good day out with true, close, friends, I need A good talk with someone reliable and trustable, I think it'll be God. Joyce Cooper lied many times. And I know it. :)

- Joyce Cooper is a lady.
- Joyce Cooper represents someone.
- Joyce Cooper is made believe.
- What STANDS FOR Joyce Cooper is Not Joyce Cooper.
- Joyce Cooper is Sweet-bitter.
- Joyce Cooper makes me feel like Shit. but honestly, she's nice.
- Joyce Cooper provides me experience.
- I love Joyce Cooper.

This is a post on my friend, Joyce Cooper. take time to know her, she bites, but let me intro her to you.
(ps: SO HELP ME, this is the last time, she is Not beth cooper from that show that's supposed to be M18, but poorly modified into a PG show.)

Joyce Cooper made me realise one thing. she taught me that:

Me: Joyce, i think every girl is the same. somehow, i see every girl as having the same interests, the same personality sometimes. just like Her, sometimes i see a similar action/personality/character between you and Her. Srsly.
Joyce: Loysius,loysius,loysius, tsk. thats a misconception. NO GIRL was ever the same.they're all different. IF every girl was the same, you would never had used Her, that special one, as a subject of comparison & you wouldn't be thinking abt her everytime you see a similarity. But we girls all EXPECT the same. Your misconception has made you view her wrongly. remember, she is NOT the same even if it seems that she is.
Me: woah, Joyce, that was quite chim. but i think... i got it. :D
Joyce: -.- you're even more long winded when you say stuffs lah, explaining everything in detail when it's like DUH?!
Me: shucks. :X

Joyce will continue to be mentioned anytime in my posts. she's great.

Joyce has changed alot. she was such an adorable girl before. so innocent, so pure. I seemed to dominate in some ways before & i think i did not cherish her previous form. & now, She's a changed lady. Now she seems to dominate me.I'm a wasted, pessimistic guy still stuck in the past wishing she would be the old Joyce Cooper again.
2 months plus. Just that. everything changed. Come back, J.

Well, all i can do is just support her as much as i can, as a friend. but it's torturing.

"i tried reaching. i'm hungry.oh please carrot, would you just move ? Dang why am i locked in this cage. I tried so hard... stretch... STRETCH... arh. i'm on the verge of giving up, but i need it so much!"

I feel like the rabbit. i want something so much, but 'four or more things' seems to be blocking me. just like the iron bars of the cage. i tried my best to reach through the gaps. i prayed for God to break these 'bars' and release me from it, but it's two different things. two different believers. two different worlds. so God couldn't help much. even though i'm broken out of the cage, and i reached my target- the thing of my most desire, having it means i will have to sacrifice myself, to be poisoned for a lifetime if i am with that 'Carrot.'

another version of this will be out soon, and maybe it'll be easier to understand and probably more 'singaporean-reader-friendly'. hope you will stay tune to my updates.

Labels: Joyce Cooper, rabbit, sacrifice

Was using facebook, did some quizzes. Here are some of the results. :( ^^


Look at that. i mean seriously. i'm computer generated to die at the age of 79 yrs old according to my birthdate. I do not like motorcycles, i'd rather a car, and i'm not a big fan of Elvis. how could i ever do that. Jeez. i can't even reach the age of sweet 80. hope it doesn't happen like that. *cross fingers*


this is somehow quite true. thats y it earns the right to be on my blog. i do agree to the "Unconventional but Unstable", i hate to follow the law/rules, but without it, i am lost or crapped. i dunno abt "Moral but Jealous", i'm not easily into jealousy, unless something or someone does something too much that i will lose something that i dearly love. I have no comments for "Artistic but Extreme", i'm in drama.:) BUT "Passionate but Flighty", YES. i am.i do really silly stuffs according to my emotions everytime. thats why i try my best to always do alot of thinking and reflections.


True. but i think i have more downs. even if i don't, the 'downs' i get are really epic ones compared to those 'ups' i get. LOL.

A little unrelated token here:

HAHAHAHAHA. those who knows wai lum, you will definitely laugh abt it. silly china boy. XD

thats it. FML. :(

Labels: FML 2

back from kayaking expedition. i actually wanted to blog during the camp, lol, theres WIFI there, and i did not surrender my mobile to the teachers.(if you noticed or did not, the date that i set up a title for this post is during camp.):D

well i wouldn't say this expedition was fun and coolios,i felt it was rather boring and lethargic but still theres a tinge of fun innit, and it fulfilled my purpose of being there.

1, letitia did not hand up our "cadet friendly" proposal to miss Raj. and raj had no choice but to report to Mr ow.
2. there was TAF club ppl and DSA students joining us, so the camp wasn't strict at all as we couldn't do heavy punishments that we can handle but not them.
3, leading the whole of ncc sea isn't as easy as it looks, i looked at bryan and put myself in his shoes. it's hard really, without experience.
4. was partnered with hubert dude and appointed Kayaking 2nd IC, wich is being a sweeper. had a hard time sweeping, really.
5. then, capt alvin asked hubert to change seats in the kayak with a girl called Ying min. learnt lots of facts abt her, she's a DSA student to the cca volleyball in our school, but wants to join NCC sea. so she came for this expedition to 'try out' whats it like in ncc sea.

Tie, she is the first girl i kayaked with. i always stick to guy partners like zayne or yi qi. but this time, had no choice. i sure hope not all girl kayakers are like her, coz she did not paddle much during the whole journey. WHOLE JOURNEY. i figured if she continues on like that, the boat wouldn't move, so i tried mr nice guy and paddled on like a berserker. trust me, i lost all my energy when we got back. she must have had a great "boat ride" during the whole expedition. :)

plus this time i had no motivation. kept pressing on, and i made the boat where mr ow and the fasting muslims were on my, "target motivation". i tried chasing the boat. dang it was too fast. :(

i'm sunburnt, tired and dissapointed.

Labels: jeez

I hate senior specs course, the camp that i have been planning for a week is screwed by that fat OW, it is replaced by some sea expedition, i don't feel like going, i'm stress coz i worry for my EOYs, i am dissapointed of myself and leah dizon + her uglyfack husband (i can't believe i'm insulting her but i am), mobile blogging is quite cool, i am broke but saving up for an ipod touch, i keep getting sick more often, Along with my whole family(my mom was just prescribed tamiflu), i seriously need a ton of TIME to do lots of stuffs, i think i should just give up, i feel like transforming into Clarence no.2 without the "drooling at self-claimed hot girls when in reality they don't" and "the fighting for girls and joking abt the stupidest stuff" AND the "getting updated on the news almost every second."


SRSLY. FML.

Labels: FML.

"Last night I had a dream about you.
In this dream, I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun,
The kind of feeling I've waited so long.

Don't stop, come a little closer,
As we jam the rhythm gets stronger.
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long.

The time is right, I put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too.
But suddenly, I feel the shining sun,
Before I knew it this dream was all gone."

"Oh, I don't know what to do about this dream and you.
I wish this dream comes true."
:D
I had a dream last night. It was one of my most desired dreams, how I wished I will always dream that same dream everytime I sleep. Waaaaaa....*o* :) i'll keep it anonymous. :D
It's context is something like the things mentioned in the italic words above. :D
Which is really sad, coz of the "shining sun". Stupid school. Made me wake from my wonderful dream.:(

What she said was somehow true. I sure hope it ain't random, coz it made some sense.
I've been thinking and infering. It relates to the three things that is ruining my life.
GG. Am I thinking to much, or she's a telepathic mad girl? 'o'

Labels: Dreams of u and me.